Depression has haunted me since I was a teenager, at times I thought that I was succeeding and that I had got the better of it but it always comes back no matter how hard I try.  I have created this blog as a therapy for myself, a way to express how I am feeling, how I am coping on a day-to-day basis with the darkness that falls over me. Sometimes it’s when I least expect it, other times is creeps up and then hits be like a bolt out of the blue.

I have been through Cognitive Behavioural Therapy counselling and have  been taking antidepressants for as long as I can remember.

I’m 47 now and I am terrified that I will never be able to control this and it will destroy my life.